When I was on the way back from dinner, my eyes were set on the dark and cloudless sky. Again, the thoughts of heavenly Daddy crossed my mind. It has been a year since I am living in the city where the sound of the screeching of vehicles often filled the atmosphere. No one in the city knows how beautiful is the moon today or its existence. The life of the city is so chaotic and human has no time to spend a moment to glance at the beauty of nature, Daddy's creation. Each of our life is as wide as the ocean of Daddy's creation and each phenomenon that occurs represent the tragedies in life. As I grow, I have started to believe the miracle of being able to meet people around me. The world is huge and how I'm destined to meet these people in my life. It seems to be a miracle to me which is magnificent as everything that happens around me play its role. There is a saying use by the all of us today: "life is short,so live it to the fullest" but life seems to be a journey to me. A journey which prepare me in my latter life and how I started to realize Daddy's gift for me. How He created me and brought me along the journey of life to where I am today :) Nevertheless, proving to me the beauty of love and life. To all readers, it is wonderful to have someone whom can share my thoughts and I am feeling blessed to have people who paid attention to what came in my mind. Thus, spend some time to enjoy the beauty of nature and our lives. The journey end in a blink of eyes and it often disappear as it wishes to.
LOL..I supposed that I've reach the peak of bottling up feelings. Thus, I so feel like shouting out but there's no one whom I can shout it out to. I supposed not many people who knows that I have a blog here. So I don't really care if people see it. Right now, there's an emotion in me which I've kept it for so long and save it for as long as I can. Yet, it is boiling up. LOL. Not a girl with patience am I? I wonder how can things change after a month? What is worst lost in no where and and have no idea of changes going around me. What comes around, goes around. Sounds very real to me and laughing my head off about it. My heart is seriously too precious to be true and how it is breaking up again. And again. For all the damages that I kept it to myself but I never feel like telling it out. Why? These are too precious to me and I still believe how he will finally made up his mind. Hope against hope but nothing happen but proving me how wrong I am. It has been weeks since things are delayed yet nothing from him. Nothing at all!!!!!!!.. Let me see, how many of us,girls can hold all these for weeks? How many?!!!! Just let me know if anyone out there will be able to hold it for weeks,months or years. Life and love is too beautiful to be true and I've been believing it. Telling myself and everyone how beautiful is love and life. LOL, i'm still holding on to it!! Regardless to how evil is the words from our mouth or thoughts that cross our mind and how we try to prevent it from coming out, we are still human. Someone with emotions and heck, I salute those who are good in bottling up feelings. LOL.. Yet, after all these, I know that my heavenly Daddy knows and tried to be with me. Every time when tears roll down my cheeks, it reminds me of how caring is my heavenly Daddy. Phew, thanks I am feeling better now..lol..Amen~
It has been a while since I chose to look back for the very first time. Regardless to as sad and as painful as it may seemed or used to be, I found myself smiling. There are many of us who chose to move on without turning back but some may chose to remain in where they are, refuse to leave it behind. It occured to me last night on how hard it is to eliminate something from your memory. Well, we are not talking about some science facts or history. Gosh that will be way too easy to be eliminated. Unfortunately, memories of someone whom we adore and love does not leave easily unlike how it is gained. From the moment we chose to leave it all behind or to let it go, there will be no turnig back even if your heart is bleeding badly. As a result, that will be where the scars are left for him or her.From the moment you lay your hand on it, you will find yourself travelling back to where the both of you were. Ouch, how painful will that be? :) Not when you have chose to let him or her go completely. Life still goes on but not with him or her anymore. Yet, the memories of his or her are treasured in one's heart or mind forever until your very last breathe..
